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Hello,

i am new here, i am from vienna/austria and i hope you can help me cause i am totally losing it.

10 years ago i was a model, i am 170cm tall and my weight was 54kg and i had a rather sporty but not muscular body. 

Then i got sick and with sick i mean really really really bad sick. one of my organs failed me, exactly my thyroid stopped working from one minute to the other. i gained a lot of weight, couldnt do sports anymore, only slept because the body lost all his energy even with more than 10 hours of sleep, couldnt do my job anymore, had a hard time studying law,finances and chemistry (yes i did 3 studies, im kinda masochistic i think haha), i couldnt eat anymore. I ate like 3 bites and totally gained 20kilos without my fault. 

Since last year they found a solution for my sickness and my health is getting better. i went from 72kg to 62kg with my thyroidmedicine (no its NOT some thing you take if you are a healthy human being, its NOT for weight loss!!). Thats nice for me now. Sports...i cant do anymore. Not in the way i used to and they told me that i might not gain any muscles again (trained muscle they mean) cause my body cant produce the hormones that are needed for musclebuild.

Now i am living with a lot of fat on my arms, my belly, my thights, my calves and especially my face. my chin is fading away, i got big chubby cheeks and i cant fit in any clothes. im wearing a (european)size 38/40 for my legs and a (european) size m for my upper body. smiling is no option for me anymore cause my cheeks bury my eyes and make them look like slits. 

to sum it up i feel terrible and my relationship is suffering (6 years a couple). 

I dont trust austrian doctors with plasitc surgery cause like the word says it always looks unnatural and like plastic. I heard a lot good things about korean surgery and saw amazing pictures. there was also an article about seoul touchup in a respected magazin. So i came here to tell you my story and ask away if you could help me. 

I dont need my bones broken and reshaped, i only want my face in a slight v shape (again like i had) with fatreduction, i want to get rid of that little belly, i despise these fat elephant legs of mine and i want to say goodbye to my jiggly wiggly arms. Can you do that? Can you help me? i am also a little scared that it will turn out bad and look like a freak, thats why im writing first in this forum. 

greetings your fat quokka

(i apologize for some mistakes i made, im not a native english speaker)